Friday, April 24, 2009 I wrote at 6:45:00 PM

;____; Curiosity kills the cat.

GOD DAMNIT.
I spoilt myself.



THAT'S RIGHT,BAW BAW AND MORE BAWW.I DESERVED IT.
I HAET MYSELF ;_____;

Tuesday, April 21, 2009 I wrote at 7:10:00 PM

Sweat & Tears

もう終わたよ。



Luck just wasn't on our side today :(
Damn the bus driver,seriously.
Dig your ears with a bloody SPOON.
Our chance just slipped away like sand...

Thank you Faeza and Faeka,love you both too.Regretted not messaging the both of you when I knew of your results.I didn't know what to say...
Thanks for those who wished me luck and all and sorry for not replying messages.I just didn't feel like it.

It's time for me to step down even though I haven't been an actual senior.
It feels unrealistic that I don't have to attend CCAs anymore.I don't need to be chased to CO anymore.A tinge of regret or not.I don't know.It's heartbreaking to see the teachers saying it's their fault,it's their bad.When it have been them who have been trying so hard...I didn't have the face to talk to them because I MIA-ed for so long but I know they've been giving their best for CO.And Mr Ngoh.Kept saying I did very well even though I didn't.

Somehow I feel that I've not done my best but regrets shall be saved for later.
Our juniors are really strong at heart,I recalled me crying bucket loads when I was sec 2.I was practically asking them to cry when the disappointing results were out.Harhar.*rolls eyes*
你们很坚强！:)
Wang Wang,Brenda and Celene Xinyi mei,all very strong (:

I shall forget about homework and have some sleep.I barely had any.
Scoldings tmr.For now,I shall think about today.Tomorrow,...I will think about it tomorrow.I need time to rearrange my thoughts.Somehow I just can't forget about this and move on.I'm not that strong,I can't stand up straight after a fall.

得好好的哭，
因为哭完这一场后，明天又得面对考试了。

( " Stressed , Desserts , all the same. " )

Monday, April 20, 2009 I wrote at 10:09:00 PM

何でも怖くなし！！。。。て、言いえたいけど。

Celene Celine XinYi AnJuan XiangYi ;)

SYF's tmr,the nervous feeling that's supposed to be turning my stomach upside ain't here yet,probably it's my lack of emergency again.
My passion ain't back yet,but I've already promised I'll give my best.
Uncle Joe told me school will be open at 5.30 am tmr,but the earliest we can reach is 6am.Still,early is early.
I got 5 human alarm clocks,oops,make it 4,cause Celene Ng meimei is another zombie in the morning.Heeheeharharhar.


Would probably go Celine Wang Wang's house at 5am tmrw to wake up and meet up with her :D That is if I can wake up.Hurrr.Hope I don't fall asleep on her sofa while waiting for her ;X ,I confirm wake up earlier then her one.

This is for dearest Yeeling aka JONN.R,
"CO,Fighting!"

*coughs* It's because she will be skipping lessons tmr just to watch the SYF.Not because I'm really that enthusiastic about SYF tmr.Hope JianXiang pigu comes tmr if he's free too.You 2 come in a set :D

A zillion thanks to Gary,I would never have the willpower to pull through those long hours of practice without his constant encouraging.

I can't deny that I am scared shit loads but DanDan will be coming.It means alot to me for her to be there.It'll be like 2 years ago once again,the only difference that will be made will be the color of medal we get.

(Bear through it)

We'll pull through.

Saturday, April 11, 2009 I wrote at 3:09:00 AM

Bad habits are hard to kick

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Sleeping late,hogging the comp till the wee hours ain't something good.
Despite me suffering from severe muscle ache due to the Best Apex Day I've ever had,I went shopping with Qina today after tuition.Sag was half dead but they still managed to make a big joke out of me.Time flew today,partly because Qina had such a fashion crisis today so we had to shop around...or else she had to find a box to hide herself,which I absolutely DON'T WANT.I don't want to be the one finding the box.Still,productive shopping day for me.Haven't done any shopping this year at all.

Parents on cruise,hallelujah.
The thought of waking up early tmr morning to GO CO is so "zzz."
I decided to go back cause I don't want to disappoint Celene,Xinyi and Celine sunshine.
As for Anjuan,dunno la she,her whole class go then she go CO one,tsk.
She also so clever,can manage studies okeh. :X
Celene still jiao wei say I must go back to help her future,yea-da yea-da.
Let nature take its own course,I wouldn't mind if they took my name off the SYF list,in that way I won't brood about going to CO or not anymore.Another burden dropped.

Can't believe I'll miss Spongebob Squarepants,Digimon and Pokemon *sniff*
Perhaps I should leave early and crash in someone's house who lives near Teck Whye.
OH YEAH I CAUGHT OR I GOT CAUGHT ONLINE BY NAD BABYYYY <333@@@
Love,hugs & kisses,you're real sweeeeetttt and nice to stay up for somethinggg.
Nad ILU IMY I Heart You.Thanks for the advice.

P.S :Chill,talk,coffee.

Monday, April 6, 2009 I wrote at 9:15:00 PM

Maybe

The mad weather's getting to my nerves.
Seems like it can't even decide whether to rain or shine.
Maybe it's affecting me.I seem to get fed up by even the slightest thing.
Getting impatient,restless and frustrated easily.
I don't feel at ease.I wonder why.I feel like an utter spoilsport.

Maybe I need to take a breather.
Maybe I need an afternoon alone outdoors to savour a cigg.And coffee.With strawberry shortcake.

Everything seems so frustrating now.

Maybe I would like to add a listening ear to my afternoon.