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Saturday, January 31, 2009 I wrote at 6:25:00 PM
Can't help but feel down when I'm staring into blank space Once again,Home Alone.
I would normally rejoice over this little moment of peace I have but the excitement is fading away.Troubles keep coming up.I would prefer to push them at the back of my mind but I have too much free time.Nothing to distract me.Gundam's only on tmr.& I'm lacking motivation to do my homework,or rather start studying and stuff.I'd normally be reality denial when life starts to get difficult but this year doesn't seem to be a good time to do so. I'm hungry.Tried to cook something for myself since I haven't eaten anything since 2 pancakes in the morning.I killed 4 eggs and 2 potatoes.Not to mention making a mess out of the kitchen.Sometimes I wonder why I do such epic failures.I can't even boil an egg.OHMYGOD.How useless can I get?-__- If I've been spouting rubbish during class it musta been this. I've never listened to the song before,so I'm trying to figure out the proper English lyric. So far I've figured out "Tuts my barreh" is "Touch My Body". Don coach made Qina and me addicted to this video.Have to watch once per day. Mom's family came over today.Don't really like them.They are people who think strictly in a box and disapprove how the 3 of us are living.Aka Modern people.My niece was as usual being a brat,which earned her the codename CB(chee bye) face.The moment she stepped into my door step she started throwing her princess tantrum.There I was staring intensely at the tv,which was currently starring Nicholas Cage in Next,thinking,"Hhng,freak.I don't care how much dad or mom adores CB face,but sorry,retreat back to dad's room and shuts everything away.Uh-oh,mom's so gonna nag me when she comes back from cruise.Another issue,I won't do any work when parents are out.Shitz. Alrighty shall go I want to go out :( .Sometimes I cannot help but think that I wish I can live more like a normal teenager. Silence penetrates my soul. I need a certain something to fill the empty spaces.
Friday, January 30, 2009 I wrote at 10:25:00 PM
*Wink**Wink*  (I Won't Forget Our Promise.) A Belated Happy Birthday To Ansley. SO. First things first,I just felt like screaming this out loud,with all my might. CHEN HUMPHREY DI ILU Seriously. ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU ILU !!!! OMFG.YOU ROCKS LAR. Thanks for the support you always gave me and promising for doing so in the future. Thanks for always giving in to me.Even when sometimes I'm so tyrannical. Thanks for making that extra effort to cheer me up. Blessed I am to have a best friend like you. ILU !♥ Na-na. Launching bitch rant in 1...2...3... Anyway,had a parody in our class yesterday during english.The relief teacher,what was her name,Miss Oh I think?& this teacher that looks like Harith.Mr Zul.Anyway Miss Oh was scolding our class for our half-arsed essays which I didn't even bother to hand in due to no inspiration befalling upon me and Mr Zul came up form his class as backup.then he did this roll up sleeve thing and said,"Now,4D.I shall take this matter to my hands.",which now becomes Anis's fav signature move.and the "HUR--RRY UPPP!"Sorry.tak boleh tahan.Despite me standing and having to fake the "SoSorryIDidn'tDoMyHomework" look,I still LaughedOutLoud.Then they said a total of 16 times of combination of,"So 4D,what do you want me to to?","What do you want US to do?","HOW do you want us to help you?",this whole thing was supposed to be serious but I couldn't help it.Went yakking away.Apparently female teachers are born to dislike me.Miss Oh kept staring at me.She stares at me.I stare back.It's rude not to have eye contact so I locked eyes with her for a minute or 2.Make her happy.But that made her more pissed.Hmmm. Kept talking away and Miss Oh couldn't tolerate it and asked me to shut up.Saying that I am being rude to her and she'll have me recorded in ORF. OH WHY SO SRS??? Seriously,that's the best she can do?Next,blackmail me by submitting my name to Mdm Lim.*snorts* Whatever lah. Resisted the urge to laughoutloud.once again all the staring comes.Hello??? then she went to check the list for the enrichment people and remedial people.Shit-ness.Made an attempt to yank my name tag off but failed.Class laughed at me.ohmygodohmygod.Miss Oh said,"& you are in the enrichment class!This kind of attitude!If you think you have good english,don't think you can don't pass up your work!" Feigned the "huh?" look. "Huh?Really?I didn't know!I didn't take a look at the list. :/" I can feel the whole class staring at me once again,thinking,"liar liar,pants on fire." I was 1 of the first people to see the list.LOL. Btw,F***.I didn't say that I have good english.In fact my english ain't that good.I'm not cock.I won't go around screaming,"I PASS ENG SO I CAN DO IT.YAY." The most irritating is they kept on echoing WhatDoYouWantUsToDo4D,WhatDoYouWantUsToDo. The f**k???AND I THOUGHT THEY ARE MUCH MUCH MORE CLEVERER THAN US.OMFG. So class suggested re-write.They didn't like 4D's essays.And they thought we were the best class.BIG JOKE.Kept laughing with the girls.Really can't tahan.Once again,youstareatme Istareatyou.And then,they shook their heads and said NO.Hmmm.Next most hated word.As if the chanting of RESPONSIBILITY ain't enough.We didn't need that,we didn't need that. Huilin got irritated and was hissing loudly,"Seriously,what's your problem la?!!You angry with us for writing rubbish for compo or not handing up essays?Keep repeat for what??!We say rewrite you all also don't want.Then keep asking what we want you all to do." LOL.She made a point.Then Harith look-alike said he wasn't angry over the compo the class wrote which didn't meet his expectations,erlack,no, he was angry for dunno what.Which,in our POV,he doesn't look angry at all.So sorry.LOL. Once again saying people have attitude.Maybe we have,who doesn't have?It's so tempting to do so when we can see that the RTs are making a big deal and repeating everything over and over.It's irritating.Plus they didn't even answer Huilin's qn. So.5th paragraph of bitch rant.So sorry.January's ending soon and I noticed.All of my January posts are either on GUNDAM or Bitch rant.Wonderful.School's a bitch.So.SHOWDOWN (like finally,about time.).Miss Oh asks me what time can I hand in my compo.Then I was being nice saying Oh what time are you convenient and free so I can pass it to you.Then she was like,"no,it's not up to me,it's up to you."WTFUXZ at the world.Since when teachers are so nice? Then I said 5.No. 4?No. 3?No. Sorry world,teachers are not nice. "I'm sorry?My lessons at end 3pm lei.Possibility of late release too." Adults' favourite answer?SAME OLD NO.F*** u,world. "okay.When brandon handing in?" *irritated* "After lessons today." "I hand it with him okay?Can I sit down now?" "Okay." -->That sounded like music to me because been standing for almost an hour already.And can anyone tell me what difference does it make between After lessons today and my lessons end at 3pm,possibility of late release??? IRONIC OR WHAT??? Indeed,the world is full of mischief.Can't be bothered to correct her.That's why sometimes I hate people who come out from JC.Grumblegrumble. End of bitch rant. Finally. On a sidenote. I got 0.5/12 for chem test.Ms Lin said there were people who scored 0,so I can't be lowest this time round,right?FINALLY I'M NOT THE LOWEST.Anyway,the led me to a conclusion that I can't even do chem to save chickens.That's for real. Anis and Fil got 2,while Nad baby got 1. This year is jinxed.Either that or Nad Baby haven't started revising yet. F&N practical for over 3hours ytd.The outcome was only 1 Quiche and 2 chicken pie which weren't even cooked properly.F***.Dead beat.Slept round 9pm+. And once again,Yilin pissed me off.So probably gonna give her more warnings and scoldings again.Seriously,Stop acting like a dog la dey.So much jiao wei.i won't even bother to listen lor _|_ . Was tardy once again for school today.So much for sleeping early?Couldn't even move.Bloody hell :( Had the urgency need to Gate was locked for 3 or 4 minutes when I reached.Fuck.Bumped into someone that looked like Celeste at blk 6.And it really turned out to be my laopuo.HAHAHAH.Someone to keep me company till 8am + :).She needed to wait for her parents so she can go back to sch (!) too.So, we did some catching up and her friend joined us later on.So I updated them on how sucky the sch got.As if it wasn't sucky enough.Ugh. Went sch with Celeste when her parents came.Saw YongXin Boss on the way.Apparently my boss,who asked me to study hard and he would do so himself,got sent home because he made a lot of noise during assembly.Tsk. The suspense,suspense.Whined at Uncle Joe and uncle Mazlan."HOW HOW HOW??UNCLE HELP!!!4TH TIME!MY DADDY WOULD FLIP!!"Ohmygod.I sounded pathetic.LOL.Meanwhile 4H were running at the Hockey field.Spooted ZongSheng and Nataniel hiding behind field pole.Uncle Mazlan was sighing and,"Aiyo,Like that how go NS??" Lucky for me,OM was being a kind soul today.Shrieked "OM I'M SORRY I HAD OMFG SOUNDS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.Was nearly sent to Mr Codeiro (Holy shit,once is enough.) BUT OM SAVED MY DAY.Okay,still have one crisis coming up.Which is Ms Sha.but I shall forget her for now.Think of it NY,you don't need to think or see her today.Which is a good thing.Stay positive. PE was a disaster.Nearly died.I am starting to love P.E though. Did more catching up with Zhenwei. Can only say he damn boxim.Very sad,but I forgive him.LOL. More epic came up during POA.LALA.Failed the test which I "really studied very hard for". AND MR SILVAM WAS TOUCHED.PRAISED US.Sashaying across our class,saying,"The people who really improved,..and are trying very hard.Even though sometimes it is inevitable that they fall.But They are trying." *does a dramatic hand wave around us,the noisy group* "these students.I believe they will do well next time round." YES,once again,TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE. Had a great laugh about it.I remembered everything he said cause it was,once again,TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.& POA remedials after sch.TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE too.And our class did worse for POA.As expected. Chinese make up lesson.Slept thru my Jan test (gasp!didn't know!) chinese paper.Too tired for Chinese shitz.Ahhh.Damn.Stayed for Dissidia and went walk walk with the usual girls.Anis,Fil,Me :) Gave them a treat.Sweet talk and our signature crackers.*laughs* Next we decided it was time to talk about what we wanna do later on in our lives.Like what course we wanna go into because ALL OF US are lost ducks.So,meeting with tea(sweet talk) and biscuits (spicy crackers.Keropok?).Went to chit chat with Deon's mother.HURHUR.Fun okay.  Meeting Place. We meant business okeh.   But then,with them,it's impossible to keep my phone away.Meeting CAN WAIT.  Of course,self-timer is a challenge but we did it.Our set up was wonderful.Made by me.  Bought more meeting food.Those long ice milo pops.Haven't had them since pri sch.DAMN AMUSING OKAY!Nek JUST SENDS THE BASKET DOWN WITH THE POPS AND YOU PUT THE $ IN.FIRST TIME I SEE OKEH!! So.Meeting. In the end we talked about insignificant things and laughed over them.I wonder if 10 years down the road we would still be like this.Made an oath that we would still contact even if we part ways.We included in the possibility of having children and introducing them to each other.Didn't have the chance to tell them I want an Oliver and Simon.Thanks to Nanny Mcphee and another show which I forgot.Hmmm.Mind you,we only mentioned about Poly 2 times and failed to continue the topic.LAUGHOUTLOUD.We kept on talking about chemical sciences,in which the place smells like heaven last time we went to visit it in NYP.LOL LOL. Handed in the stupid compo today those 2 made a fuss about.In the end,Nicholas told me I had to write a narrative compo.Which I don't know whatthefuck it is.Worse thing is,Nic said I wrote a personal recount.Again,whatthefuck is a personal recount? Anyway,instead of "An Incident Which Left Me In Utter Disbelief",my compo should be named "Grief".I wrote about everybody's dear StupidSexy!Lockon.WHICH IS AKA NEIL DYLANDY. ~~An Incident Which Left Me In Utter DisBelief~~--Extracts of emo shitz and rubbish. In my state of shock, I subconsciously ruffled his burning red hair, A habit which I can never change.I could not believe this. Neil, who was always so flamboyant and bubbly, would no longer be smiling warmly at me anymore. The emerald green eyes which I always adored, now hidden behind his closed eyelids, would never be looking at me anymore. ---->WHY SO SRS???? I find it hard to embrace the fact that he is no longer here. Here, to hear my troubles, nor laugh at insignificant things with me. Gone and soon, never to be seen again. Another one.LULZ.EPIC. If only I stopped him. If only - but those words were futile against time.-->okay,my fav sentence. Seriously,whatthefuck.Where the hell did I get all these emo vibes from? World's full of mysteries. Just embarrassed myself by posting my half-arsed compo up.Anyway GUNDAM's starting soon.I can see the real,living Neil in a hour's time or more.Which,sadly,will be dead in okto channel soon. And SADDED.Didn't see Celine Sunshine today. ;( Lastly,WAN QI AUNTY IS SO SWEET AND NICE AND GRACIOUS SOUL AMAZING GRACE XZXXZX.  Ten Years Down The Road. :)
Wednesday, January 28, 2009 I wrote at 7:41:00 PM
Waitin' fer a smooth ride . ( In short, fuck you,World. )   (Thank you,girls. ) So.Another series of drama happened once again. Which is like,by the end of this year I think the amount of dramas happened would accumulate to 4 years' worth of drama!I maybe exaggerating,which I hope so.If not,DRAMA WILL HAPPEN THRICE PER WEEK.OR MAYBE MORE.WAYHEY!MAKES THINGS SO MUCH MORE HAPPENING THAT I LOVE THE WORLD NOW,EVEN WITHOUT BRING AND STUPID,SEXY!LOCKON. For every wednesday I'm probably gonna brag.I don't even know what this week is but seriously,so many subjects we study,all the boring one had to fall on a CCA day.Hmmm... POA went on smoothly,Anis,Fil,Nad and me were still denying reality and saying we'll pass the test.Despite our enthusiasm for the previous lessons,we learnt nothing at all.Mr Silvam's face was scarrryy when he left the class.Uh-oh. As for Physics... "Compression is a......" LOL SORRY OMFG WTF WHUT???THAT WAS ALL I COPIED.WEIYI WAS NO BETTER THAN ME.BUT SHE FINISHED 2 SENTENCES.I WAS MORE AWAKE THAN HER.I'M THICK! Chinese was another one.Hmm.Yak Yak Yak away with Jovinson and Yizhen.Went crazy on Simin stead during recess again.Geography was another story telling session.Sorry for Mdm Pua,but there was this matter that's been bothering so much that I had to confide it to Nad baby asap.Trust Nad baby to give the best consolation,felt so much better after talking to her.As for CME.Hmph.Big fuss was made because some people in our class didn't do POA hmwrk.WHich isn't a matter occurring for a day or 2.It's been 1year LOL.I didn't do the work actually,but was late for sch so Mr Silvam didn't check my book.Reflection on responsibility during CME.WAO THEY DO THIS IN CME.Responsibility,I hate this word now.Ugh.Required to stay back to edit the notice board as I am a member of NBC.NOTICE BOARD CLUB.Cool eh.Named it CME detention. Didn't really have the mood to go CO due to various reasons.Sadly mom didn't allow me too.She was about to call me cause Ms Lai called to say I didn't go CO.Wtfux.Grumble grumble.Once again Humphrey the Saint escorted me to music room.Another big thank you.Oh,and Weixiang was super nice today.Seriously,there are times when he's pretty nasty,then suddenly he's all nice to you!Spooky or what?! Things started to get boring for Simin stead and me so we went for toilet break and fruit juice.Yeah yea,lucky or what.Got reprimanded by Ms Lai once we got in.It looked like she's just finding an excuse to pick a fight with us lor.She wasn't convinced that we went to toilet,and said that we used 5 minutes to go to the washroom.Like seriously what's the problem with her la?! She got really pissed off when Simin and me gave her the AttitudeProblem way of standing and staring at her,...cause she's short. Apparently it angered her further (LOL!)& she started blackmailing us on banning us form SYF.Sua lo,if she bans me,Qu Di only got 1 people,confirm minus marks lo.As for Simin stead,she nvr come,few of the sec2s also won't come one,less and less people lo.ZZZZZ.She jumped into conclusions that we pakat and leave CO early all the time when it's only once!And we seeked permission from Mdm Wong okay!Never even state facts right and she got embarrassed and started finding reasons to scold us.She even came out with something lame like,"WHY YOU CAN'T FINISH YOUR HW ON TIME?"Hello,every sec4 here is tired okey.It's just that we ain't that keen of being perfect at everything.So,scold us for fuckk--!??!!Damn pissed.Just when Simin and me were pretty moody that day.Was really tempted to yell straight as her face but I bet she memorised my mom's number already.Psst.If I knew things were going to turn out that bad,I shouldn't have went CO and I will get scolded with crowds of those who never go CO lor!-.- Nabeh.F&N's been pissing me off lately and CO's been ending late at Wed.Education is far more important,of course I opted for early leave la!KNNB CCB!Du lan sia!Grrr. &was particularly disappointed with this someone.You sighed dramatically at the sight of us and gave us that look.The look in which you show Detest.I really didn't expect that from you,really. =/ Worse thing is parents were on cruise again when I got back home.Fuck?Should have screamed into Ms Lai's face man.Zzz.DownrightPissedToTheCore. Did some catch up with Humphrey brother.Other than the small drama that happened during CO,there was this small issue that was bugging me that I got really fed up.Really,as in seriously fed up.Seriously,he rocks the world by brightening up my sucky day manxz! &&&,I have 1 good reason to bring tissue to school now.I noticed that the gesture of giving a person tearing tissue is extremely compassionate and touching.No excuse for me to be lazy.I would want to do the same for my friends too. A big thank you to Humphrey,Ruzaini,Sulaiman,Fil,Anis,Yizhen,Deon & Nad baby.I owe you all big.Especially Humphrey.Hahah.Ruzaini and Sulaiman were uber sweet too.Touched deeply okey. *sigh* Something to improvise on: Be more independent. I'm really annoyed and disappointed with myself. I really hope there won't be a second time I push all my problems to my friends and wait for them to tell me what I should do again. Of course it is a well known fact that I always have this uncanny ability to push all the blame to the world.SO, Fuck you WORLD. Thanks to the major downfall I had today,I totally lost all my mood to complete my hmwrk.So it's all your fault.Fuck you world,fuck you. Seriously,I need to stop letting my mood get the better of everything.LMFAO. Some handy advice given by SiMin. I HAVE TO HYPNOTIZE MYSELF EVERYDAY THAT EYECANDY IS MILLIONS AND BILLIONS TIMES BETTER THAN HIM*.GET OVER HIM.BLAHBLAH WHATSOEVER. Actually the other MORE handy advice is that she should ask me to channel all my energy into studying.But no,she thinks uniquely.Despite that,she said that I have the chance to get into AND I MISS MY CELINE SUNSHINEE ;( Jovinson,cheer up! (IReallyHopeIWasThinkingTooMuch.) P.S : I ain't good enough for you.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009 I wrote at 10:16:00 PM
A few things to note,...or rather,bitch about.  Disturbing,I know.Some peekture bout 2 years ago.Teddy bear puppet show made by Qina,who is always bored at office and can't resist calling us to entertain her.Mind you,HARIBO teddy bears are simply DELICIOUS. I changed my blogskin once again!HURHURHUR. & If I'm not wrong,school's opening tmr!!!! OMFG.Didn't know.There I was thinking,"Wahey!Parents on cruise marathon!It's once again to screw my body clock and surf for MOAR GUNDAM FANFICS!" O SHIT O SHIT. Lost my timetable.Kind soul Deon says tmr there's... POA,Physics,Mother tongue,CME(!),Geography(♥!) ... Tmr doesn't look promising. CME????Ohymgod.It was my favourite subject till this year.Since when do we have actual CME lessons?This year. At least Geography ain't that boring,storytelling comes out time to time.Bad baby tries her best to make me stay awake.Anis and Fil jokes around with me.Xiaoting and me talks moar about Maria Cock,just that we've cut down alot.BECAUSE WE LOVE GEOGRAPHY AND I DON'T WANT MDM PUA TO COMPLAIN ON ME TO SAG.Even though,I'm a change-GED student now.HURHUR. I owe Mdm Cao tons of hmwrk for Chinese.WHY OH WHY. Physics=CMI. Dad have long embraced the fact that all 3 of his daughters are all not Science person.Green light given to fail Science.Mr Tan's back.Physics boring like...Physics again.Damn,we miss Mr Ee already.Whole class used him to vent our stress out.LOL LOL. As for POA,Silvam's been praising our class lately,branding us as his fav class(OMFG U SRS???WE'RE THE WORSE GRADED CLASS FOR POA LMFAO.) and praising me saying I've improved,which is actually a fib,I can't even do accounts to count chicken,all I've done is just plain copying down what's INFRONT of me,cry out loud,for god's sake.Been screaming "AIM FOR DISTINCTION!!!" for POA and Mr Silvam looks at Fil,Anis and me with glistening eyes,shining with belief and pride...OHMYGOD WE WERE ACTUALLY BEING SARCASTIC DOES HE KNOW THAT. This year's Ang Baos not bad eh.Better than last year.Plus dad keeps winning.Which means more tips given.Teehee.Daddy,win more kae! Nad baby finally updated.Uber happy.Glad that her eye's better now.Can see her tmr and drive certain people in the class crazy again.Teehee.Missed her tons.At least she makes school worth looking forward to for me.AND SHE DID MENTIONED SHE FINISHED ONE NARRATIVE ESSAY.OMG LOL SORRY WHUT???THERE'S ENGLISH HMWRK??SHITZ.NEED CONFIRM TMR.More hmwrk,does it mean I have to leave halfwya thru CO again?-.-.Damn malu k.Plus the teachers can't believe that I retreat back home early with the only sole reason of "TOO MUCH HMWRK!".Wtfux.& chinese hmwrk?Forget it,forget it.I'll be an outcast in class if I did it.LOL. AND SO! I'm recruiting more human alarm clocks for me,be it tmr or any other school day.Thanks.Since I'm only 1 more time late to suspension,which leads to Heil from Daddy.Can even forget about my LeSportSac bagpack.AND JUST HEARD THAT TOURISM NEEDS ACCOUNTS.WHY OH WHY ACCOUNTS???OUT OF SO MANY SUBJECTS.I MEAN,HEARD THAT THAT COURSE HAD LOTSA GOODIES BUT ACCOUNTS???? Feck it. Sigh,gonna break my brain tmr to try and squeeze my music gadget in.MY BLOG AIN'T MY BLOG WITHOUT MUSIC SPINNING TO IRRITATE PEOPLE. Can't wait for Weekends.GUNDAMUUUU.Moar Innovator action this week,pretty puhlease?? I miss Bring D; P.S : but he just don't know that I got him all memorized.
Monday, January 26, 2009 I wrote at 11:01:00 PM
Oh,the sea,sharing the same shade of green. Happy Birthday Jeramy!
Rock on ;D And A private joke but I still feel a need to spazz over it. HOLY F*** I LAUGHED MFAO. Auto switched it to Halle/Alle X Tieria in ma mind.CRACK. SO,Cruise on saturday.  Feels so good back home.Hahah.Grown up in Superstar Virgo since I was a weeny baby in mom's tummy.I still remember my routine,one cup of hot milk at Blue Lagoon every night.Only this time it's different,because I managed to sneak into the casino(Embarrassing,absolutely embarrassing,had to thrust chest forward and stand straight at all times.Don't people look at faces at all and just let you in???So much for puberty.Psst.) and have some free hot milk over there.With cookies.Casino smells of smoke.Lots of people smoke Salem.No like. Mom invited Kenn over last minute.Hell,someone was so quiet and scared of being lost and kept on following Sag.Sag = mother hen.AND AND AND,the ship is the only place where I can wander around confidently and no chance of me getting lost!See what I meant about HOME?*laughs*  Qina,Sag and me successfully turned our cabin into a trashbin right after we arrived.WAYHEYYY and RollOnBed that sort of thing.Leave it to us to mess up anything,LOL.& the teddy bear there?It's named BiBi.I need something to cuddle on when I sleep.Basically I bring a plushie with me whenever I'm sleeping out.  During my 2 or 3 years of absence from Home (crib), the cruise had some changes.Like this couch.New in the lounge.Which I terribly wanna bring home. That's what we had on mind when we stepped into the lounge.THE LOUNGE PRETTAYE AND IS BUILT FOR PHOTOSHOOTS KAE.Made a mental note to tag along whenever Dad wants to come Virgo.And dad,VIRGO ONLY.For photoshoot?Just let your imagination go wild.I can see Innovator harem through my point of view already.LOL LOL Which reminded me to be random again.  Oh Innovators you sluts. HOW MANY COUCHES DO YOU WANNA HAVE??? I mean,having one at home is understandable,you people and all your care bear BUT YOUR WORKPLACE?????YOU PEOPLE DON'T EVEN SPARE YOUR WORKPLACE AND BRING ALL YOUR FUNNY FETISHES IN.DO ALL LICENSE HOLDERS SHARE ONE ROOM??? Man,if A-Laws lets you customize your own quarters I might want to join in too! Especially prince tool Revive,  Nothing changed much.Except for the sea that is.More ships swimming round.Due to lack of business.And the seawater got greener.I sense melancholy in the seawind.Oh,the sea,sharing the same shade of green like my deceased Lockon Stratos a.k.a Neil Dylandy.The only difference is that Neil was an unique individual and made that pair of eyes colored the dirty shade of green shine like emeralds.Green,like Neil's eyes,but not burning with determination.MY HUSBAND.DEAD BUT NOT FORGOTTEN OKEH. Okay,I'm being an airhead here. Yesterday's Spring cleaning killed me (after going mad at cruise!) but I managed to survive and see the sunrise of Chinese New Year today.Before CNY even started I already collected $250 already.LOL LOL.Bless dad's lucky stars when he was gambling in the casino.Due to some reason I wanted to jump into the sea,the sea, to Neil's embrace.OH god oh god HOW COULD I???? :( Sometimes I hate myself for sleeping like a log.Anyway,I wanted to jump,but mom gave me $100  I'm human.I need to rest okay.X5 is real big. Another $100 came from my wearing of Cheong Sam to Grandma's house today.FIne.$100.Worth the humiliation.I have Grandpa's chicken rice and Grandma's coffee.Pfft.  Not forgetting Lucky.Just that you got a horrible hair cut this year.Zzz.   你的头好大！！ FYI,we forgot to bring oranges with us so we had to turn back again.Ribbons Alamack. I don't feel really festive this year,but still, Happy Chinese New Year. Sometimes Grandpa is so cute and childish that it saddens me. What makes it worse is that I can't communicate with him at all D: Idontspeakorunderstanddialects. 5 more years Grandpa!You'll live to 100 and ongoing! For some reason,I felt really depressed but I am a very lucky person. Thank you Humphrey, for not neglecting me even when I'm out of land *laughs* :) Hope to see you real soon,there's so much more I want to say,personally. (It's stupid,and yet,I can't get those out of my mind.) I don't know what you're trying to prove.That you're more superior compared to me?
Friday, January 23, 2009 I wrote at 10:18:00 PM
Tardy again. Late for school yesterday.3rd time since sch started.SHIT!
Meiling and the others were late too.So lucky me had some company then.Had to fill in this reflection form.I gues steachers give punishments according to their moods.I mean,all those drama when I was only late for 2 times...?Fuck man.Raneesha's sister ain't friendly at all. "Didn't you learn english?Your 4 Ws and 1 Hs??"*sighs dramatically* FUCK YOU LAH.I DO LEARN ENGLISH AND I'M SEC 4.WATCH UR BLOODY MOUTH. Damn I love Raneesha. And we just need to fill in a reflection form.Which totally left me dumbfounded and staring into blank space for a few minutes.Like hello??How am I supposed to WRITE A PARAGRAPH on my reason for being tardy was that...I OVERSLEPT???Plus the questions.All repeats.So my answers were a repeat too. Went for a good half hour of POA and went for CO. God old Gary was mumbling grumbling that I have to more dependent because I have problem buttoning my sleeve.Save me from the nagging brother,I'll get a boyf when I go up to Poly.Haha. Performed and so on.Blahblah.Left my bag at the gallery and went down to disturb Zong Sheng and Mo Jin.Revealed that Mo Jin has a fear of __________.OMFG what Nuan Qin said was true.He looked so embarrassed.Tskkk.  WAO OM DECIDED TO ROLE PLAY THIS YEAR!He made an attempt on speaking chinese blessings to us but it was illegible.But whatever.Blessings received.LOL. Om threw chocolates at us and ZongSheng suggested we throw them back.Didn't know that that wasn't allowed.But escaped punishment.Backseats FTW.4E and 4F were banned from the gallery because practically everyone in the gallery threw rubbish down.Zzz.Assembly's is gonna be boring w/o the 4F peeps.Zzzz. Sushi with Bel,Del,Liting,Wanting,Rupert,Humphrey,Alfred,JunQi.  Grabbed from Bel's blog.hurhur.  The girls.  Foooodddd.  Alfred,Rupert,Junqi :) Had a dream about Bring today.I really really had to say this. He was seated on a bed AND I WAS LYING ON THE BED OMG OHMYGO- AND REGENE WAS LYING NEXT FACING ME O SHI- AS I APPROACHED HIM AND TRIED TO TAKE OFF HIS GLASSES I HEARD "SUPERMAN" AND I WAS...O SHI- Woken up.Thanks Qina for the phone call.A miracle just had to happen and disrupt my sweet sweet dream.Which may turn out to be a *BEEP* Okay.Off to cruise nao.Finally.Oh,my homeland,my childhood crib. Looking forward to be back at sea again. Breathe in deep,sea air CRISIS BEFALLSSSSS. O SHI-
Thursday, January 22, 2009 I wrote at 10:43:00 PM
Ain't willing to make Chinese New Year celebration a funeral tmrw. Changed my blogskin once again.
Reason being the same old one,got sick of it. On a sidenote:Moody phase is back again.Don't tick me off.I'll just snap. Horror!One big shock. Turns out that uniform for performance tmr will be...blouse + black pants + red tie or bow.Either of which I don't care.Spent hours digging for my CO uniform(it's official,I guess).Although part of me wants it to stay missing,because without a uniform I won't be able to perform.Correction.I won't need to perform.Erlack,life doesn't go in the way you want.Despite my half arsed efforts,inevitably,I still found.O shi- Still needs ironing anyway.School's been crazy this week too.Been having funny moods. Sometimes,correction,most of the time,I would have this sudden urge to snap at anybody and tell them to fuck off.Moody phase back?During CNY?Not a promising start.Feel frustrated all the time even though I have no idea what's all this about.Partly cause of school I guess,been playing good girl and paying attention in classes,but still,I get no shit.Which,adds on to more funny moods. Parents been off to cruise for 2 days already.Was dead beat ytd and "thump!" I went.Not even touching Deon's psp,which he vair vair nicely agreed(my hands are clean) that I can bwing his PSP home.Conclusion?Deon's a saint.Not much people,AND,correction again,NO ONE,would lend me their PSP when they know that I have/am: a)Violent tendencies b)Highly destructive Plus few mates have taken note of my funny moods and decided to stay away from me for a while.So that I can't mash their PSP buttons worse then I can when I'm in the bubbly mood.Wise choise,I can say. .___. Made diabetic doughnuts for F&N practical today.Actually Denry did all the work.I was supposed to do the pizza but I was lost like a duck.As usual.   Couldn't have done this without Ravin's help.  Ravin may tick me off at times but he's fab when...he's not irritating me.Which is fortunately for him,most of the time.Oh,he apologises when he finds out that he goes overboard.For me,anyway.MyHandsAreClean,NoThreatsAtAll. Brief update on what I've done recently,which is once again swimming at Jenie's place after math tuition.For the umpteen time,her house's a bloody resort!    Surprised she didn't get the book wet.I always get my book wet when I bring it to spa/swimming pool  Uh-oh.Snapshot of Qina bored of reading already,looking great there with her gucci shades.Hahah.  No sun that day.Windy that day.Nearly died when I jumped into the ice cold water.@*#$@(*#$)!!!  It's a resort here. Ran away from CO yesterday.Except that Simin and me actually ASKED a teacher for permission.Mdm Wong's a saint,saying we can leave after 5pm.Busy with F&N and Simin and lots of HW to clear too.  Ended up chatting with Uncle and sneaking around like thieves because CO was released early.Crappp.  Uncle Joe's mirror handy aye!  Stayed back with the girls to finish up the notice board.NBC-Nabeh Club.Of course we cam-whored.Except that we had a family photo taken. .jpg) Fil,Anis,Jov,Me :) Diophantus ahoy!♥ More coming soon,...After I've picked myself up,that is. Teachers love Gossips Afterall. There's no secret between teachers and students.Once information is leaked out they poke around,...Try to give you help but actually it irritates people down the core.I think that they should just mind their own business and sit in their staff lounge,sipping coffee and talk about something else. We don't need fakers at all,fuck off. &&,I don't give a fuck about CO anymore.It's pointless.  P.s : Nothing left but a memory... (I couldn't find your table.)
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 I wrote at 10:54:00 PM
Sunshine after the rain I hope that you'll see your rainbow soon.
I hope that I've made you feel less lonely when we talked. I just want to say that you're a really great friend and you were there when I had a major breakdown.I would like to do the same for you too. "Haha,you also nvr change what." You had no idea how much those words meant to me. I gained self-satisfaction through your simple comment,something I've been yearning for some time. （泣くなよ。） My prayers will cross through time.
Monday, January 19, 2009 I wrote at 9:04:00 PM
Pretty ED is Pretty. Lyrics from the usual sauce,http://ninteenpointzerofour.wordpress.com/ 花は風に揺れ踊るように 雨は大地を潤すように この世界は寄り添い合い 生きてるのに なぜ人は傷つけあうの？なぜ別れは訪れるの？ 君が遠くに行ってもまだ いつもこの心の真ん中 あの優しい笑顔で埋め尽くされたまま 抱きしめた君の欠片に 痛み感じてもまだ 繋がるから 信じてるよ また会えると waiting for your love I love you I trust you 君の孤独を分けて欲しい I love you I trust you 光でも闇でも 二人だったら信じ合える もう離さないで So that the flowers can tremble and dance in the wind So that the rain can wet the ground This world is growing closer Even though we’re alive Why do people hurt each other? Why do we part just to meet again? Even though you’re still far away You’re always in the center of my heart I’m still filled with your tender, smiling face The pieces of you that I want to embrace Still pains me Because we’re tied together I believe That we’ll meet again waiting for your love I love you I trust you I want to take away your loneliness more than anything I love you I trust you Whether in light or darkness If we were together, I trust we can meet again I won’t let go of you again Damn,can't wait for the debut to be releasedddd. From what I see after replaying this new beautiful but sentimental ED tons of times even though I haven't watched the new episode and can't stop thinking about it,I conclude: a)Moar Saji emo shit's gonna come out.I MEAN,Sunrise TOTALLY INCLUDED HIM into the NEW ED.Whereby ED are what Sunrise use for fangirl services=Meisters OTP Harem usually.But now???Intruders 1 and 2:Saji the Wimp And Maria the Marie.I didn't EVEN NOTICE Saji until Sag told me.Psst. b)Anew's sex is confirmed.No more confusion.Unless Sunrise wants to turn Gundam 00 gay. And morph the fangirls to be satisfied&Hapy fangirls watching G00.No,Sunrise ain't THAT kind. AND THE TIERIA SCENES. He turn back AGAINST THE INNOVATORS AND HIS GUN WAS AIMING AT REGENE. OMG OH NOOO. Nothing's bad gonna happen right? D: PLUS,Tieria's scene gave me a really bad feeling.THE GLASSES AND ALL.THE KEY ITEM AND MAIN FOCUS FOR CLUES ARE HIS SGD$300++ GLASSES! Disaster always comes.Bring's gone for real.My fav carebear that was alive and kicking only for...4episodes?;___;.Poor Revive.Shag at work?No more.I'd rather Revive stays "No Shag At Work" then go with Hilling The Brat or Divine NOVA (another dumb InnoGAYtor name,the Innovators' names just get more and more ridiculous I swear.) Who Aspires To Be A Drag Queen Like Alejandro Corner The Clown.Pairs don't really get along after all.I MEAN,MOAR EVIDENCE DIVINE DRAG QUEEN IS A DRAG QUEEN.HE GOSSIPS AND BACKSTABS HIS OWN PAIR.Only he's more sexy,more quiet,doesn't uses "anata" for "you" in jap,has longer hair which makes him more man,has a more better toned body.I mean,Divine look like he can carry off the look of wearing LARGE HOOP EARRINGS.Call me bias or not,I'm trying to see Lyle as less of a dick now,so,can see that obviously,I AM,trying my best.Savvy? Hilling and DIVINE & DAMN IT RAWS DOWNLOAD QUICK!I FINISHED MY HMWRK IN AN IMPOSSIBLE,INHUMAN SPEED JUST TO WATCH THIS. P.S:The world is growing closer even though we're alive.
Sunday, January 18, 2009 I wrote at 5:34:00 AM
Picnic at Tropical Beach.Imaginary. (Yayness.Finally weekends are here.) Hey-ho,weekend's here!
I must be crazy blogging at this hour.But whatever.I'm renowned for blogging in random,inhuman hours. It's gonna be long due to PicnicInSchool. On a sidenote,I'm thinking whether to stay awake till 8am,or go to sleep nao. I need to reach Jenie's house by 9am+ for math.Swimming! :D Deon just came over for cookies,Daywatch and FF&:Advent Children. I can't believe he didn't watch it when the whole world was making such a fuss over it! He was here partly to make sure I don't mash his PSP buttons...like mashing a potato. As for the last few days in school,it's been stressful but YETTT,the girls managed to morph some parts of my days into a joke.Like having imaginary(scenery wise) picnic in class. *swirls in an elegant,Regene-like manner* "Now,my friends,close your eyes and imagine a beautiful,tranquil tropical beach." "Mine's covered with topless virgins!"Oh veda,I think I got all of Miss Hallelujah's capzadistan memorized.  Cameraman for the picnic in a tropical beach was me.Of course looking at the photos you people would know it's me.oops.This isn't a really good shot.  Nope,ain't a good shot either. (Baby,what chu doing?)  Yes yes,gets better.SEE Qyqy and Xiaoting's lucky mascot ginger there?WE EAT WITH LUCKY MASCOTS.  Finally I got Farhana in.  Oh yes.Must not forget to feed darling lucky mascots.  Now that economy's down,save as most as you can.  And I think we're getting a lil bit over obsessive with lucky mascots.  Someone just found out I was taking peektures everywhere...  Choose to continue eating,nut still refusing to let me take picture of her having the spoon in her mouth.Bugs me.  STILL REFUSING.Tsk.  Man I love Bandung too.  Happy family?Farhana didn't eat muchhhh >__>.  Be beach friendly.Do a part in keeping our tropical beach clean.Nad baby plays role model by clearing up the remains.Well done baby.You deserve more story telling during chemistry.  "Hohoho!!" End of picnic.Wonder if the girls are going to make it permanent.Then I shall do a whole list of wonderful scenery for us to dine in.All depends on imagination.Stress have been eating our sanity for quite a while.But I'm sure we'll make it if we stick together.Hurhahahah. Ajisen Ramen on Friday.  Di,thanks a ton for the treat! :) I have your word,accept sunshine and my present or I'll castrate you! On a sidenote:  Deon,it means "Learn to think independently,don't be lazy!" Aww.Poor Mdm Cao,been trying to talk us into taking Chinese seriously but failed.Again and again. So,shall I sleep now? Great.Sounds stupid,but I'm paranoid over small and irrelevant matters now.Is it something good?That exams are getting into my nerves?If it's that so,damn. P.S : Michelle,don't mind.Don't mind. :) P.P.S : Thank you thank you tyvm Sunshine :D It's always vital that you believe in yourself.Even when you think you're not strong.you still have to.A lucky few will have people to believe for them.Cause they're afraid of believing in themselves.Unfortunately,you're not one of them. (On sanity's end.) |
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