Saturday, January 31, 2009 I wrote at 6:25:00 PM

Can't help but feel down when I'm staring into blank space

Once again,Home Alone.
I would normally rejoice over this little moment of peace I have but the excitement is fading away.Troubles keep coming up.I would prefer to push them at the back of my mind but I have too much free time.Nothing to distract me.Gundam's only on tmr.& I'm lacking motivation to do my homework,or rather start studying and stuff.I'd normally be reality denial when life starts to get difficult but this year doesn't seem to be a good time to do so.

I'm hungry.Tried to cook something for myself since I haven't eaten anything since 2 pancakes in the morning.I killed 4 eggs and 2 potatoes.Not to mention making a mess out of the kitchen.Sometimes I wonder why I do such epic failures.I can't even boil an egg.OHMYGOD.How useless can I get?-__-

If I've been spouting rubbish during class it musta been this.

I've never listened to the song before,so I'm trying to figure out the proper English lyric.
So far I've figured out "Tuts my barreh" is "Touch My Body".
Don coach made Qina and me addicted to this video.Have to watch once per day.

Mom's family came over today.Don't really like them.They are people who think strictly in a box and disapprove how the 3 of us are living.Aka Modern people.My niece was as usual being a brat,which earned her the codename CB(chee bye) face.The moment she stepped into my door step she started throwing her princess tantrum.There I was staring intensely at the tv,which was currently starring Nicholas Cage in Next,thinking,"Hhng,freak.I don't care how much dad or mom adores CB face,but sorry,retreat back to dad's room and shuts everything away.Uh-oh,mom's so gonna nag me when she comes back from cruise.Another issue,I won't do any work when parents are out.Shitz.

Alrighty shall go read fanfics and figure out the lyrics.If I fail once again,I'm just gonna download the actual song.I wish I had more life.Ugh,but I don't wanna face the whole shitpile loads of homework there, not forgetting F&N.
I want to go out :( .Sometimes I cannot help but think that I wish I can live more like a normal teenager.

Silence penetrates my soul.

I need a certain something to fill the empty spaces.