Monday, January 12, 2009 I wrote at 8:42:00 PM

And the wind whipped at my back in greeting.

DOOMS DAY.

BOOHOOO.After yesterday night's mourning session I had to face school again.
THIS TIME,WITH COURSEWORK.MY "O" LEVEL COURSEWORK ARRIVED TODAY.YAYNESS AND REJOICE!!!!
...
NOT.

Backtrack to how life was during my weekend.I bet most of you peeps knew how was my Sunday already.*cries*
Sec 1 orientation was a blur and a mess and a tiring event.Woke up round 5am+ thanks to the help of Simin and Celine.Ohmy.Super early if it was a normal school day.Sneaked around the house like a thief because I didn't want to answer my parents their dumb and redundant questions.Mission success.&&,Seems like the sec 1s are accumulating more and more lifeless dorks and geeks.PROMISING BATCH.Academically.


HOT PINK lighter with words printed.Damn cute kay.Pity it isn't mine and I most probably won't need to use 1 for a long periodd of time.Obedient schoolgirl aiming to mug hard for bloody major exams kay.

Slacked with Meiling,Evelyn,Zhizang and Simin for a few hours and decided to go Celine sunshine's house to get my hoodie back from Celene mei.And we had a go at the sing near her house.I think my height phobia getting worse okay.I will even get cold sweat and shiver if I go too high.Damnnn.>__>.
AND I SAW MY PEEKTURE ON CELENE MEI'S BLOG.NO MERCY.


In the beginning they kept swinging in the same directions.Damn freaky lorh.Haha.

And great they have so many unglam pics to blackmail me.Should have taken more.


Sunday afternoon?Stayed at home while Celine sunshine and Xinyi mei came over to study.I DID MY HOMEWORK.Be proud,be proud.HAHAH.And at night,...well.I seem to be confusing reality and fiction all together now.


This is Ducky,aka QyQy.Nad baby's new treasure and lucky mascot for our group.Nad baby says it will motivate me successfully,it works for every lesson except POA.QyQy sleeps during POA.*laughs*
Zzz,due to the extra SS lesson today I couldn't manage to shop for a lucky mascot.Mental note:GET A LUCKY MASCOT,MOST PREFERABLY BIRDDDDD.How I wish I can get a peaCOCK to strangle.

As for the coursework,damnnn.F&N for O level's is tough.Felt nauseous all the way throughout the briefing.Yizhen and me wished we had Raneesha's nerves and guts.She's not AFRAID AT ALL.Sense of time died at me today.Lessons' "POOF!" and gone.Except for Maths,obviously.Took all of my efforts to stay awake.But Ms Tan is a very interesting person as she sees things from a very interesting perspective.Very intriguing.

O level results was released today.Unfortunately wasn't in the mood to listen all those talks.Certain repulsive bitch pissed me off.And statistics for POA?Wonderful,gets worse year by year.I'm sure our batch will make history.LOL LOL.
And for a certain delusional repulsive bitch,I've had enough of you.Of course being a self-proclaim FAMOUS BLOGGER you would have to maintain your so-called image.Like pah.Some FAMOUS BLOGGER in a singlish manner,koped stuff during her lower sec days.You are getting on my nerves.Especially the insult you threw at my best friend today.And writing fake,ABSOLUTELY FAKE views in your blog posts.Don't fuck around with me.Be yourself?I think not.Keep insisting you are express material.I don't mind.But in actual,you are still denying reality.And yeah,higher english my foot.You do have a way of putting words together,but I've never ever heard of a subject called higher english in my entire life.You may score well in NA exmas,but deep down to the core you are a rotten person.Delusional,reality-denial,repulsive,irrational,uncouth Bitch.

No names or arrows mentioned.Don't wanna risk myself.What if she files a lawsuit against me?*gasp*
Girl,you piss me off.

Lost my composure back there.Oh noo I sound so harsh.Back to sch.Finished relishing anger.Fullstop.Period.School for now.
Chatted with security guard with Filzah and Anis.UNCLE SAYS I'M VERY GOOD.YAYNESS.Part of my motivation came from him okey.He is super chatty and nice.Much much better than most of the teachers in the school.

Had ice cream with the girls and paraded round Teck Whye Market.Non stop hits.Kept on laughing randomly for no reason.Brain cracked up perhaps?1 winter melon caught my eye.Looked like a baseball bat.Suggested playing baseball in NTUC but there was this uncle who kept on looking at us.Greattt.

Recently the weather's been windy,which makes weather cooler,but pleasedon'tspoilmyhair.Psst.Swing at sunshine's house again,pretty please?


One year later,it would be us,either crying for joy,or the other way round.
After that we would part ways.Would we still be the same?Laughing over silly things,refusing to grow up and act more matured.Reality crashed on me today.It finally sank into me,the fact that I've been refusing to accept-I'm secondary 4 now.It took me 2 weeks to accept that accursed fact.I will be sitting for one of the major exams in my life.The accursed O levels.It's no time to be reality denial now.Everything seemed like yesterday.My sec 3 year literally flew past.Soon we will be parting ways.We would be moving on to each different future laid out for us.For now,I shall cherish.Cherish,the little time we have for now.For the world never stops.The clock's spinning,and I would want to be a happy adult.



It's okay,baby.Do not feel guilty about taking it out on other people.I'm sure they understand.I understand how you feel.
On the edge,that is.


(愛わ、何時までもそんなに弱いだから。)