Monday, July 28, 2008 I wrote at 8:47:00 PM

My life isn't a bed of roses,like what most of you people see.

Hope to see you brimming with smiles once again.




loves the sunset♥





Happy birthday yasmin,you gorgeous girl♥




Currently veiled by huge amount of emo.
Veiled as in,veiled like Mouri's ghey veil.
I'm really not joking,lol.
Maybe the only difference is that this veil ain't made of silk,which I guess Mouri's one does.
Well,mine is the notabletosee kind of veil.Like wth.
I'm gibbering rubbish already.
*laughs*
God damn it.
Emoing's an act equal to bitching.

Today school was soso lor.
Selpt through assembly again.
And as expected,teachers aren't that good at keeping their words,or they're sufferring from memory loss.
After promising there will be no mention of Chinese Orchestra,and then I heard that familiar 2 words today during assembly.
I can imagine how furious our teachers in charge will be.
AND the troublemakers included once again Vice chairman and quarter masters.
Haha,actually playing the water hose isn't any big deal,but suay suay kena caught by teacher,so have to kena liao lor.Zzz.
If that day I din encounter mood swing,probably I'll be blasted by Mr Ong also.

I forgot(as usual) that there is physics and POA test today.
Hurhahahaha.
POA die liao lor,I got tuition I still dont get any shit.
I got copy the format lar,but I dunno anything,also CMI one.
And and and,I think its my turn to get 0 for physics.
Open book I get 2.5 and close book I'll get 0.
Crapppp.

Surprisingly I passed everything for July other than science.
POA cause silvam anyhow key in,he said he will expect us to get tt score for our test.
Sorry to disappoint that I think I'll get single digit once again.
Felt accomplished that I passed maths but the con part of my july marks was that I got 9.6 for combine science.
which was WAO I finally got single digit for science.
I think I got lowest in class sia,which now,normally I won't know what to say other than "lol".
Cause my results really damn pathethic.
How pathethic as in,my combine science consists of 0 for chemistry and 2/5 for physics.
And it's combined sciene.
Oh my tian.
*laughs*

Thanks ar,raneesha,for distracting me while I was presenting for F&N todae.
"Don't waste my teeiime."

And Silvam's trademark for the day:
"IDIOTS-!!ALL OF YOU!!!"
Which was quite funny,and we people were laughing despite he was serious scolding us.Diophantus like everything also laugh sia -.-.

Today pei Nicholas find OM for a quick chat.
I din notice I was the only female that till Mr Zainal told me.
Oooohhh.
And I din know school got durian tree!
And OM acts like a yakuza,rather that the retired policeman he's supposed to be.lol.
OM says CSI's bullshit.
But I will still watch it,cause got this damn shuai uncle.

Chatted with Jovinson today and was amazed at how AA one bimbo can be.
Omggg,haha.

Speaking of the bimbo,are we really having full uniform rehearsal at SP on friday?

And I dunno what that POA bitch told dad,recently he's been bonkers about me wasting me teeimmee not studying.
Like halo?
Since when did he care lar?
Can you just let me drop POA,like PLEASE?
That b!tch-!
Fuck fuck fuck.
She's psychoing dad.
I know it.

"POA is quite an easy language to score,and it won't be worthy for her to drop an easy subject like POA."
I'm sure she'll come up with more bullshit then that just to get more money from my dad.

For the first teeeime I saw her,I knew she was up to something.
Knn la,you martha fucker-!
Just.Fuck.Off.

And why is dad thinking I'm even reading storybooks online??
Omgg,do I look like I don't have mooneh to buy books?*cries*
I'm reading fanfics,dad.
They improve my corny engrish-!
Well,they provide large small amount of entertainment too,by the way!



Oh,and to you,if you're not planning to make my life easier for me,then I won't make your life easier too,cause I see no point listening to what you say when you won't even let me do what I want.
Damn simple lor,this theory.
Why don't you understand??
Maybe I've found the answer for you,which is because ur effing brain is f***ing dead!

I need a new hiding place before I go home during the night everyday nao.
& omg,XianXiong's so nice today.Haha!



Jianxiang,tmr wake me up at 6am.If not guarantee we both late one gua.
Damn happy when you came and tell me what's going on.





I fucking miss Simin stead and Meiling laogong.






Nad babe,you recently damn quiet,its scaring me.
Molest you also bo reaction one.






I ain't in any stand to demand of you what happened,what made you so sad.
I haven't even known you for a year yet.
You've always said I'm always so daring,but the truth is I don't even dare to ask you just a simple "Are you okay" when you were crying tears due to reasons I'll never understand.
Even 2 simple words,"Cheer up",I couldn't even managed to cough them out.
You're always so bubbly,that's why it scares me so.
Start showing me that face that usually brims with lots of charismatic smiles,won't you?




笑着带过这一切，并不代表我迟钝，
而是我并不想显露出我的介意。
因为是你教过我，
笑容是最好的伪装。




P.S:Remind to self.
Stop reading Chinese fics.It's adding on to my emoness.
P.P.S:AND STOP LISTENING TO SENTIMENTAL PIANO MUSIC.
IT ADDS ON DOUBLE TO MORE EMONESS!


Saga confirm say my this post gan corny one.LOL.
Whatever.





Let me hear your laughter ringing around my ears once again,will you,babe?

Sunday, July 27, 2008 I wrote at 9:01:00 PM

Downright pissed off.

Fuck la.
I really hate POA tuition now.
To bits.

Sneeky little teacher doing things without telling me,now every sunday have to go out study with her.
Fuck fuck fuck.
Who does she think she is?
Can't she just like,take the tuition money and scram off?
Why do all teachers like to kaypo so much?
Simi lj lar.

Before helping me just help yourself la.Kns.-__-
Damn pissed can,tuition is supposed to improve your grades,make you understand your work(although I still don't understand a shit about anything of POA)but it seems to be killing both my mental and physical health.
Damn pek chek lor,everytime after POA tuition will moodswing then I'll suck my special lollipops,kbkp laaaaaa.
Already before public concert wont do it liao lor.
Then the stupid tuition just had to give me a lvl XXX moodswing.
Fuck fuck fuck.

I think she psycho dad also lar,now dad is drilling all those expectations to me liao.
Let me do what I want before you tell me what you want from me lor.
Zzz,everything also cannot.
Maybe I should just say she physically abuses me,then dad will fire her.

I need more ChikaMouri nao.
Rebuke doesnt change anything,but I still choose to.
It makes me feel better after giving people pain in the ass anyway.
Cause apparently I dont like suffering on my own.

Currently no mood to do hmwrk liao.
Shall join the neverdohomework stand up group tmr again.

Fucking du lan siaaaaaaaa---!!
Which is quite an uncivilised way for me to swear.

Cheebye larrr-!!




I noticed everytime after POA tuition I'll end off with "Goodbye cheebye" sia.





Spamming is bliss.
One fact I just realised.

I wrote at 12:36:00 PM

Tongue tied

Thursday and Friday was a blast.
Which made saturday quite sucky.

Din manage to get any sleep on thursday night cause I was spazzing over ChikaMouri till I forgot to sleep.
Damn lar,main OTP for sengoku basara is supposed to be ChikaMouri Masayuki can.
Mouri's a big bitchy fag emo kid but I love him.

Playing catching in class is quite fun though.




Raneesha likes to hide during catching huh.


"OIE-!Cheebye!Don't take photo lar!"

Friday's chinese extra lesson was a we were given assignments to do and ish required to finish them free period and I used the time smartly.

Proves that I got do my newspaper cuttings kay.
People keep on saying this glue stick looks wrong.
And then the mad girls wanted me to "Kechink" with them.










These photos damn hard to take kay.Humphrey was our cameraman but Frederick went crazy and Manja again.He went cat dog human 3 modes that day.Which was so disturbing then we kept on laughing and cant pose for the camera la!LOL.
Wanted to grab Frederick,nad babe and farhana in the pictures.But nad and farhana were missing and Fredericks thinks his hair isn't nice that day.
lol.

And after playing I had to stay back to rush my newspaper cuttings.
Damn it lar.-.-,play till forget time.

Went to Co and din manage to burn up.
pssssssssssss.

Yesterday Simin got come CO sia!Miss her coming so much,cause we can chit chat a lot during CO.
I missed sectionals yesterday cause I was at parade quare doing frog hops and pondering whether I should play volleyball or not,cause scared Ms Lai,or worse,Mr ong come catch me only.
in the end think till 10+.Wa lau eh.
After that gossip with Celine,xinyi and lynn.Then we totally missed sectionals liao.
Wth-!Lol.
I don't care,Celine and xinyi are my meis liao.Reject also cannot.Hurhahaha.

Yesterday combine till halfway then I saw jianhui.
So go chit chat with him reagrding CO points.
then talk till miss combine.
Zzz,ytd's practise I did nothing like that lor,lol.
Tio meh somemore.Wth-!
Simin stead got scolded aga the same timing as me,cause she longer time never go,lol.

Was supposed to stay back to practise mandala but,...
Sorry to disappoint weixiang ;/

After that went to meiling laogong's house chit chat with simin stead.
felt better fter talking to them and Meiling laogong sent us halfway home.

Went to taka later on (which was damn late,cause we kept on procastinting our chores),and I forgot to take peektures.Simi lj -.-
Bought tons of garbage home for thursday's PS2 session again.
In the end I did not buy any blouse and pants home.
there's so many basara related books we wanna buy,no money larr.
the ChikaMouri cover book T^T
Maybe I should just keep the money dad gave me lar.I don't feel like performing liao lor.LOL.Cannot burn up,cmi le lar.
I feel like using the money to buy the books.

I should stop falling asleep early on fridays le lar,I keep missing D.gray man.
Zzz.I should sleep early on wednesdays,but I'll miss angelshit.
If CO falls on thursday maybe I shall just chabo and go home sleep till parents leave for cruise la.

POA tuition in 4 hours time.
POA tuition's a bitch la-!I dont even want to take it can.
She even wants to drag me out to study,wtf lar.
She thinks she knows me so well,she teach what shit I also dont understand lor,simi lj.Zzz.

Yesterday maths tuition damn distracting,sagara just had to watch ChikaMouri videos.
Zzz.

Recently I'm caught under emo veil.
Which is so wtf.I can be so emo at the same time and get high on ChikaMouri too.

Sometimes I just don't manage to know how I feel,what I'm thinking.
Is that what that makes me a twisted sadist?




There's just so many to say,yet I don't know how to start.
Afterall,I don't mind being mistaken as a bimbo smiling everything through.
I don't mind if no one understands how I think,how I work.
Good and bad is merely just a point of view,and I don't expect people to understand me further either,cause I'm just that horribly twisted.
I would prefer words unspoken,cause I work just like that,even if you people don't understand.
And of course,I have my own reasons skiving off practises,but I prefer not mentioning them.
I guess I made a wrong move choosing not to.
I don't care anyway.





まるで血を流れようにーーーー
　　　　　泣いいてた。

Wednesday, July 23, 2008 I wrote at 9:42:00 PM

Rants for the day.

There was this thunder rainstorm whatsoever in the morning and I couldn't wake up.
Luckily dad woke up and fetch me,if not I kena screwed by mr ong hardcore X XXXX times.

Due to the bery the nice weather,I fell asleep for countless lessons till Mrs foo came in and slammed the table with her laptop bag.See her face black till like that,whole class reckons they've not done well for the test liao lor.
The usual 3Disalazyclassunlike3A,lazyandstupid,dumbanddontwannaworkhard class blah blah bullshit,whatever.Class wont take it to heart and we've done (most of the class)HAVE done,our best for the test already.Everyone wants to be in the same class next year,so they're trying to study hard lor.Damn unfair for these people,cause they,erm,haven't adapted the studying life yet.-__-||

Damn thick-skin for me to say.I got study also just pass only.LOL.Most probably we won't receive notes again.Zzz.Haiya,that time she sick nvr come whole class cheer then she also know,no wonder she so angry lo.-__-.Students are happy when there are no lessons de mah.

The lessons were like "poof!" and gone,because I fell asleep for the others (due to the really nice weather) .

Anyway,I got another 0 for my chem quiz again.
But it's the july test mark,so july test I got 0 for chem and 2.5 for physics.
you go girl.LOL.
Damn pathethic lar,my grades.
Sci sucks.

Today I decided to go to the CCA who doesn't appreciate efforts,CO.
Sian,dunno what happen,I can't seem too fire up for CO already,go there a while I skived off the whole practise and joined the netball girls for volleyball already.

After painful training that caused our arms all red,we are now all volleyball pros liao okay-!Prepared for any games liao!
And then,I din know Humphrey so pro at volleyball lor.Sophia,Su er and me kept saying we well trained,then in the end humphrey nearly pwn us.-.-.
Someone's been training for 4 years lor,confirm go sentosa bio charbo one.

Then Yizhen gave me some good news.Tmr supposed to be 3hours theory for F&N but mdm siti probably not coming.but most probably even if she not coming,she will give extra lessons also lor,need finish the milk cheese ppt by our tests.-__-.I rather she come tmr then we stay back,cause F&N is damn fun lor.

I MUST do assignments tmr (if we are given) and not show Fajriah CrossAllen.
MUST not spazz our mangas.
MUST not bring DVD tmr to com lab to watch.
MUST not read storybook.
MUST complete research.

Confirm cannot one,my self-control CMI one lor.Zzz.
Plus whole class confirm rebuke don't do work one.
I damn paiseh to present my ppt lor,so quite relieved she never come.
Plus my MILES group haven't started on anything yet,damn scared Mr ong screw us hardcore lor.
I don't even know whatthehell I am suppose to teach.
I don't even understand the topic that I am supposed to teach!

Hellboy II's ghey ghey ghey.

Just watched it with saga,kenn and guel,the usual.
Damn ghey can.
the red and blue ghey,reminded me of sengoku basara.
Cause blue + red = purple.
Zzz.
The show quite funny lar,but overall we found the plot stupid.-__-.
Plus we were quite confused cause we forgot what happen at part one already.
LOL.

Just read spoilers for hitman reborn.
Damn what lar,make me think wrong.
From what I understand from the whole chunk of Kanji,which I am crap at,nothing much happened.
LOL.
I misinterpreted the meaning of 8018/1880 lor.
I saw this お腹抱えて起き上がる and I thought it was hibari who helped Yama up,but it wasn't-!It appeared that yama helped himself up lor.Wth.And I was getting so excited about it.

But I still awaiting for more D.gray spoilers,well,uh,you know,my new love,CrossAllen.LOL.

I suspect TYL 8018.
hurahahahahahahahaaaaa.

This rant post like damn long can.-__-
Somemore I just got home and already kena make fun by parents liao.
OTL.

And hurheehahahahaha,I'm sufferring muscle-ache from today's volleyball session already.

Today is rant day lor.LOL.
Chatting on msn with peppermint on how bias teachers can be.
Sian lur,tmr got the CCA that doesn't appreciate efforts again.
I'm thinking of skiving off again,but public concert coming liao ;(





And we can help each other off the ground, so we'll never fall down again.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008 I wrote at 9:36:00 PM

Sunset,sunrise

I finally passed my maths.
For like,the first time,for any tests.
I know its no big deal but it means something to me k =X.
Most probably I will get nagged at cause parents are never ever satisfied.
But still,I passed.
I'll shall continue spazzing over the fact that I pass,which is satisfying to me only,until dad asks me about my maths test.Hmph.Puii.

I was late today with JianXiang and Celine.
Damn suay lar!Somemore I got a lot of illegal stuff with me,but luckily nvr tio spotcheck.
Jianxiang suppose get early bird programme one lor.Lol.

Today lessons were a bore as usual.
Even Xiaoting's favourite maths was boring too,nearly dozed off.

I din do english hmwrk,kena caught,cause today BB lim went around and check-!Damn suay.Sat on floor and copied Physics workbook instead.
For PE,we were supposed to play Captain's Ball but i think it ended up as Screaming ball instead.Boys versus girl but Raneesha just had to betray us.Hurhahaahaa,and I keep kena tio hit by her.Dammit -.-.I recalled us all screaming frantically until we went to boring physics!Weiyi and me dozed off,then kena caught.Zzz,Test was postpone cause we were whining like 3 yr old babies.Physics lesson damn suay,Weiyi and me were caught sleeping.-__-.
I remebered yesterday I was trying so hard to describe CrossAllen to Fajriah I kept on saying like,"Cross and Allen...Cross and allen..."*Fajriah and caroline would nod here and I would say,"Cross and allen are gheyeheheheheehheheheheheeheheheeehaha..."
Zzz,describe one hug also so hard,I keep bursting into laughter.

Today's CME was after assembly,which our class refers to it as the free period.
No use telling values to us,we have learnt it all already *coughs*
Lee meng teck damn naggy and lame la.While he was nagging half of the class were sleeping,no one listening he still keep nagging.the usual you shoot me,I shoot you game with him,got bored so I slept till lesson ended.

Go home sure rot one,So I decided to sleep in class.
But then I only woke up at 5.30pm,wth,I wake up liao only left Pooja,yizhen,Caroline and Raneesha.-__-.Then raneesha throw dunno whose dirty shirt to cover my face,machiam song ka.

And I'm not gonna molest Nadiah,Filzah and Yuhanis again.
LOL.
Damn scary lar,I'm suppose to be the big molester but I kena PWN today lor.
Zzz,Geog lesson 1 whole hr I keep disturb Nad,then in the end assemble Yuhanis and Filzah were torturing me badly.
Lesson learnt (homework gave by Yuhanis) : Never molest Filzah,Yuhanis and Nadiah babe again.

I forgot there's homework to be submitted tmr.
Lazy do lar,somemore now CSI start liao.
Shall go see the sexy,charismatic uncle nao.

P.S:I wanna play basketball with the TFL guys again-!




一人一人の思いを
僕らはどこかに残せるだろうか

一つの想いを
僕らわどこまで守れるだろうか---

Monday, July 21, 2008 I wrote at 8:13:00 PM

Chasing memories.

Procastination follows.
No more.LOL.
Though a lil bit late,here are the pictures I took when I went to singapore flyer.
The ticket ;D


Beginning others like sian sian,while the girls were going around to take photos.







Other snapshots:




































Time to show some flesh and blood humans.










On the way down after an enjoyable,harmful to stomach ride.


Coach emo.


Classic.
Lastly,Miguel trying to be Jasdevi.


This are not all but I lazy upload others le lah.The scenery all look the same lo.lol.
Actually the ride itself would be very boring if you don't go in a crowd.Cause the thing move damn slow for 30mins,then is only our own selves high only,thats what that made the trip so fun lar.Haha.

then then,after so many years I finally took one photo with Ann kor.
Yayness-!


Today damn sians lar.
Thats why I got the time to post the photos.Haha.
Today our class released at 12.30,which was miracously early,but then 3C they release at 4pm+ lor.In the end also nvr play basketball OTL
Met Saga for MOF and Prima Deli and ish now refreshing bbs.ikunlun for dunnot how many times already.
Neurooooooo-!


And btw,mom,it would help if you just shut up.




--cause memories are imprinted on you for a reason.